I don't always see things very clearly. I look, but I don't see. I don't always get excited or nervous about things that I probably should take more seriously. You know why? 'Cause I'm in denial, sort of. I under-react to things because I don't want them to be a problem. I don't want any problems. Ever. So I refuse to acknowledge them as such. I used to think it was a handy skill born of growing up not wanting to see the way things were in family. Now, not so much. Maybe I have realized that I can take it. Whatever I see, really see for good, bad or ugly, I'll be able to deal with somehow. If there is one thing that I know about myself, it's that I'm flexible, eventually. Maybe not as flexible as some, but enough to work things out and keep my ship afloat. And I know that I have been missing some important information by not really looking at things. I also know that I get very distracted. Internally distracted for long stretches of time. Hyper focused on some things...blissfully (more or less) ignorant of glaring others. Not good. I need to widen my scope. I have asked for perspective several times this year, when I pray, which I do, often. I want to have the gift of perspective which to me means putting situations and people and events and such in their proper context, if there is such a thing. Yet I realize to have true perspective, you have to see things clearly for what they are as well and not just what you want to or are prepared to see. That's an important part of perspective as well.

In 2011, I want to look at things and see them for what they are. I can handle it. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not puffing out my chest and rattling my sabres. This is not a true "bring it" attitude. Not yet, maybe not ever, but I am ready to begin the work of really seeing things. Now knowing what they mean, that's another story. Truly, though I am pretty intuitive and competent with allegory, symbolism and more importantly, human nature so I figure I can muddle through. I just need to have real data to parse here. I need the research and not just the abstract. And so I'll keep praying for perspective this year as well. Just "enhanced" perspective this time.

2011 for me is the year of clear sight. Happy New Year to all. I hope you like what you see.

Boo.

I had to change my email account today. I haven't quite closed it, but I intend to. What a colossal pain in the ass that is! I can't believe it. Someone hacked my email and started sending pharmacy spam out to everyone in my contact list/address book. I had people in there from school, work, mspec and years ago. I also had a bunch of emails that I was saving for one reason or another (digital hoarding, no doubt) but now I'm trying to decide if I need them or not. Hundreds of email. Tedious task.
I hate this and I am pissed off.
Good bye yahoo account. I'll miss you.

Recently Googled terms

Risperdal, side effects autism

That's a load to google, isn't it. It says a lot about me and where I am right now. Left out of the search because it's implied is white knuckled panic attacks uncontrollable crying and anxiety with sleeplessness.

This may be related to another search I've done recently..."menopause symptoms" and "hormonal imbalance" Sheesh. Talk about a full plate. No wonder I spend so much time googling things like "irish dance dresses" and "free new music"

Just sayin' that one thing drives another so to speak.

American Museum of Natural History - Video Mail

American Museum of Natural History - Video Mail

Freedom!

Now that I don't have to blog for a class, I'm free to write whatever I want...so of course I'm stumped. I'm just exercising my write to prattle on about whatever minutiae I like (oh, lovely! I spelled that right...no evil underline to mock me.)

Today was research medication day...shall we try an SSRI for perseverations, rigid thinking and anxiety? Is there any research to suggest that this will work? Will we find a psychiatrist in NJ that specializes in aspergers? That's next on the to-do list.

I also gave 25$ to a NJ based clean water outfit because that's important to me.

I stayed in my pjs all day...because that's important to me too.

I followed cool people who are tweeting from educon about "cognitive load." No, I don't know what the hell that is. Yet. I will.

I watched a movie. The Queen. I think I'll watch another one on iTunes. Becoming Jane. Joe and I were sick today. Digestive complaints. Dave and MK went to Williamsport...hence the major slackification. New word. Slackerizing. Slackdom. Whatever.

The World is Flat so I'm told

First thought is that I have to read The World is Flat now...http://tinyurl.com/y9kdsml. Been putting it off, but it seems like the time. Will give it to my husband for Christmas and then read it when he is finished. It has apparently been updated in 2007, so it will be relatively current (if that's possible anymore.)

And so, I have been saving Chapter 9, "What it all means" for a time when I can pay attention and think about it. Savor it, so to speak. Can Will Richardson hear my Amen from the back of the room? Amen, I say. What I like about Blogs, Wikis and Podcasts is its applicability and good sense. Web 2.0 has changed the way people interact, this affects education...in many diverse ways. Richardson allows that the affect is a challenge for classroom teachers, which it is, physically and psychologically. However, as with any kind of change, using a thoughtful approach and a willingness to try and possibly fail at first, there is quite a lot to be gained. The role the teacher plays will change but will not be diminished in any regard. Richardson states beautifully the ways in which education and teachers will have to change...personally, I'm ok with that. Yet I have posted things on Facebook and Twitter that I have felt to be truly inspiring (and doable!) and have received some (veiled) negative comments from otherwise brilliant teachers, yet when they hear or see the word "technology" they become defensive. There is not just a big physical shift that is necessary, but an attitudinal shift.

I am really excited about the possibilities, and I can tell that Richardson is as well. He is a great model and leader. I would love to hear him speak. But I wish that I could spread some of the enthusiasm without eliciting the fear and anxiety that comes with his message. Having said that, I am willing to try.

Good course. Time well spent. I wish I had had even more time, but to quote the overquoted, it is what it is. Looking forward to more. Thanks.

Visual Vocabulary

Working backwards, I have finally finished the first project assigned. I was a little sullen about having to use Powerpoint, spoiled brat that I am. So I put it off and uploaded something that I had already done. While, technically it could apply because it was a vocabulary of the solar system, it wasn't right. I also was using the useless, frustrating Nokia at the time and had a devil of a time getting images that I could use. Still can't get over the 2 cameras conundrum. And I had started out with a much larger idea for a school project about classrooms and school personnel in Spanish. I had to really scale back, and this is what I finally came up with. I like it now. Again, though, I just feel as though I haven't had enough time to do any of my projects justice and that makes me sad. Anyway, here it is from Slideshare, sans transitions (which really enhance this presentation in my opinion, but what can I do?) I really should try to figure out the optimum size for presentations for this blog because everything I have posted from Slideshare and YouTube get cut off. Ugh.

Los Colores

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Book

Well, I'm not sure I captured my book in pictures, but the approach I used for this one was more deliberate and thoughtful. I tried to incorporate excerpts that catch the spirit of the book, and I tried to create images that really went well with the text. None of this is easy and requires planning moreso than is evident in the final piece which I think is a valuable lesson to learn when planning to do digital stories with kids. It is a challenge on many levels.

How -to video

Here's my "how-to video" on making coconut almond macaroons. Thanks Mary and Rory...especially Rory, who's a big ham (and secretly doesn't like coconut...can you tell?)

How to create and comment on a Voicethread

Ann Rider's Podcast

Hi everyone, I posted a new episode to my podcast, Ann Riders Podcast. Please click the link below to view it. http://anniebrider.podOmatic.com/entry/2009-12-06T17_36_35-08_00 See you there! - Ann

Shel Silverstein Poems

Ann Rider's Podcast

Playing catch-up...putting it all together

I am playing catch-up for sure. It's been a crazy 2+ weeks of being sick, kids being sick, having relatives come for days (with all the requisite shopping and cooking) and then a long weekend in Philadelphia at an Irish Dance competition (which required several extra practices since October.) It really set me back even farther than I was. I took a lot on this Fall and am not sure that I have been able to do any of it truly well. I will not make that same mistake next semester.

I have been able to think about many of the topics addressed in this class, but not write about them. This post will begin to remedy that, hopefully.

First of all...the Nokia. Ugh. I couldn't get past the frustration. I had such a problem switching between cameras. I took it to the Turtle Back Zoo but missed a lot of shots because I was switching between cameras. I just can't figure out why there were two cameras in that thing. Redundant and confusing. How many times do you need to take a picture of yourself? Seriously. And I had to use the stylus because I couldn't get the touch screen to reliably work for me, I guess I didn't have "the touch." This is ironic to me, because I can use the touch screen fine on my iPod Touch. So I just failed miserably at getting the Nokia to work for me. I just didn't persevere enough. Not intuitive at all.

Next. The Will Richardson book, Blogs, Wikis and Podcasts. I really, really like this guy. I like what he has to say about the future of education. I like how he doesn't treat Web 2.0 tools as "educational technology." It's just education. I like how he's not scared of the future and is making attempts to manage the direction that education and the role that technology plays in education. I follow him on Twitter and very frequently read what he tweets and pass it along or save it for future reference, (using Diigo, which he so succinctly describes in Chapter 6, the Social Web. I have previously posted about my success in sharing about using iPod Touches using Diigo with my colleagues. I felt very smart. Thanks, Will.) Did I mention that I love him?

I did read his comments on Wikis and blogs. I had already been using a Wiki for the World Languages Department in my School District, with mixed results. It's been good for me a few other teachers who are willing to use it, but there was little (useful) training or explanation of use/benefits for my colleagues last year for them to use it with any regularity. And I didn't have the time to proselytize as it was my first year there. Can't be too pushy right out of the gate, kwim? I have found the wiki to be super useful in some respects, as I have gotten some good ideas/comments/resources from the willing colleagues. A fifth grade teacher at my school uses a wiki for her book groups and reading responses with great results. There are uses for a Wiki.

One thing that I will continue to do outside of this class is blog. I like it. I have my son doing a blog for his reading/language arts class. He was thrilled the first time he got a comment from his teacher and wrote right back to her. There you go, writing for an audience! An authentic audience! We have been changing his backrounds with pyzam.com and are on our third holiday template. Although I am not a blogger in the true sense of the word, as there is no real "focus" yet to my posts other than my experiences in using technology in the classroom and beyond, I follow people on Twitter who are prolific and true bloggers. Blogging is a valid and useful resource.

I am looking forward to reading Chapter 9 What it All Means. But right now, I will peruse the podcasting chapter as I have just posted a podcast on podomatic.com. In Garageband, there are so many controls, I don't know what the hell does what. The audio sounds a little tinny and volume levels are inconsistent because I did 5 different poems. I had the best time putting the little Stingers in as transitions. I hope to complete my book excerpt tonight, from Little House in the Big Woods, but the kids are running around making all kinds of noise, which is not the most conducive environment for recording. And man, does your mouth get dry or what when you're reading these long passages? Ok, now I'm going to figure out how to post from Podomatic onto this blog.

iMovie training

Participated in an iLife/iMovie 09 training that was offered by my district yesterday. I learned a lot of great tricks like green screen and PIP. Thinking about how a teacher will incorporate digital storytelling in the classroom is a long process. There is so much planning involved. Also, choosing source material, like cameras or online content is a lot of work. I will probably do one on my own first to show the class before I have them participate and eventually take ownership of the process.

creativity, digital story telling and handwriting

Been thinking lately about how digital story telling can really work for a lot of kids who have writing issues, like my son. Digital story telling offers a way to present knowledge/understanding using organization and creativity without the difficult writing/handwriting process. And I mean not only handwriting, but keyboarding as writing as well.

I am going to apply to pilot the use of iPod touch as a tool to create podcasts at my elementary school. I think that until they Touch gets a built in camera, we will primarily use it as a recording device. There are headsets with microphones and earbuds which I am hoping will make it easier to record in a classroom setting. There are always recording issues. The Touches do have wifi and safari for internet access. And there are quite a few apps, but I have to investigate whether you actually create the podcast on the touch or record and sync the audio to a desktop/laptop for the actual creation in like Garageband or whatever.

I am so interested to hear other teachers' opinions about podcasting/digital story telling because of how "wed" to the writing process teachers can become sometimes, for obvious reasons. I think I see this because at the level of language learning/acquisition that my students are, they do almost no writing, just language production. So I know there are alternative means of expression/presentation/assessment that can be used effectively. Storyboarding is a big element in good digital storytelling which is an organizational tool. The editing process is well, just that, editing...choosing the most important material to include and checking for meaning/correctness. A well done digital story can be a very complete representation of a students thoughts/understanding/ideas.

I keep meaning to read more of the text Digital Storytelling in the Classroom, but quite frankly not only is it like a user's manual, which I am notorious for eschewing in favor of just trying things out, but it's also dry as toast and about as indigestible.

I'm proud of myself for finally quieting my mind enough to finish another assignment and thankful that I have 2 days over this teacher's convention that I can spend some time and get things done.

Phrase Assignment

I have finally gotten it together enough to sit down and create the story that I've been thinking about for the phrase assignment. It takes me so long to get from idea to product. Why is that? Anyone have any words of wisdom for me?

Diigo experience

I was in a meeting on Friday with elementary school teachers from around our district. I wanted to share my experience with using Diigo one of the social bookmarking tools described in Richardson's book, Blogs, Wikis, etc. He had recommended it along with Del.i.cious with which I was vaguely familiar. I decided to use Diigo because it archives copies of your links.
So I had started to add bookmarks and give them tags, but I didn't organize them. During the meeting on Friday, I suggested that we look into the use of iPods in the classroom. One of the teachers was interested enough to pilot a project, but didn't have a lot of information. I had 5 great links bookmark on Diigo, so I made a group, searched on the tags ipods and classroom that I had used, invited her and the Assistant Supervisor to the group and now we are all sharing the links and commenting using Diigo. It was so simple and effective. And I looked like a real gear head. Nice.

Allegory

Okay, stay with me. This is going to be really convoluted. But I am trying to arrive at something here. I am trying to make something work in my mind for the Digital story assignment #2. So, somewhere I read an interview with Terry Gilliam of Monty Python fame. Ever see any of his movies? Brazil, Twelve Monkeys, Lost in La Mancha? He cited as one of his influences, well 2 of his influences, Pieter Breughel and Hieronymous Bosch. Familiar with their work? Heavy on the allegory. I saw the Bosch at the Prado in Madrid, weird intricate paintings full of social commentary on sin and such. Same with Breugel's early work, although not as heavy-handed, he still painted with an eye to figurative reference. The Grim reaper is allegorical, as it represents death.

So I got to thinking about allegory, and I had the opportunity last week to do jury duty at the Essex County Courthouse. I was lucky enough to be sent to the Absolutely beautiful Historic Courthouse I was not thrilled with having Jury duty, but it afforded me to things. Time to think and the opportunity to see the beautiful EH Blashfield murals that had lovely allegorical paintings about wisdom, knowledge, justice, etc. Again, more allegory. More representational figures that are more than they seem. So now I'm challenged to think about what I can do along the lines of allegory. Like the Keats thing, Beauty is Truth, truth beauty. Or the Platonic thing about the universal...

I'm not sure where to go with this. Although I am reminded of the little tale of the wind and the sun, upon seeing a man with a heavy coat on, begin to debate who could get him to remove the coat. Short story shorter, the sun wins. Much gentler. Still thinking. Will continue this thought.

iGoogle and Blogger

I am adding the Blogger Gadget for iGoogle. I like being able to post from my iGoogle. I have been interested to finally figure out what RSS feeds can be used for. IGoogle makes it super easy to add RSS feeds to your iGoogle page. I have to decide what to put on my Home tab. I may make a new tab to organize my edu RSS feeds and then leave my Home tab for more personal/lifestyle feeds.